Blogging has become such an obsession outlet. I've been really feeling these last two long days and just feeling spent. I'd love for Charles to come home to a wife who wasn't on the verge of tears, but between Nation & adjusting to our lives here by the time 8pm hits someone should really put me in time out.
As parents, you have "training days" where you have to really reinforce some behaviors you'd like your child to behold---that they tend to "forget" every few months [like school over summer break]. Although more valuable than anything you could give them---it's physically/spiritually/emotionally exhausting.
It's not more sleep I need, although I do need more, I just come to the point where I need to be not needed for anything else that day. You know? Not from the kids or Charles. Don't get me wrong, I love them and adore my J-O-B [calling], but time alone is needed to help me refresh and recharge. Hence the blogging. Although I'm pretty sure more should come from Jesus time.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
-2 Cor 12:9,10
Currently saying a lot...
1. Don't yell
2. Don't throw that
3. Don't touch that
4. Don't wake them up
5. Don't talk back
6. Don't fuss
7. Come here right now [most popular]
Sticking to our schedule helps, and so does when mommy is totally running on the Spirit and not on Diet Spirit [like Spirit, but with a splash of sugar free Candra]. Meaning---I need more time with Jesus and need to parent more out of His patience, grace & love than running out of mine by 8pm.
Speaking of 8. We broke our swim everyday for the rest of the season goal---maxing out at day 8 yesterday.
Today we met Charles for lunch which was so great. Then we did a lot of playing inside & ventured out again to Kroger. Everyone take a minute and just be thankful for your home grocery store that you: [1] Don't get lost going to [2] Know your way around & [3] Carries the stuff you usually buy. Nation had his own grocery cart which was really cute.
[Nation today & almost 1.5 yrs ago]
Tonight we had fajitas and Charles was understanding, as always, that dinner was served an hour after he got home. He is really taking this---me his first ministry thing---seriously. I feel lots of patience, grace, understanding and love being channeled my direction.
STORY OF THE DAY
Looked for my phone for 15 minutes as we were walking out the door because I needed the GPS on it to help me get to Charles work. Driving away without it--I managed to understand Solomon saying something about Nation hiding it. Even though I'd asked them, Nation then fessed up to hiding it and it was right where he said it would be :)
Praying that all the adjustments happen quickly! Hugs :)
ReplyDeletelove reading your blog! Very encouraging :) keep it up!
ReplyDeleteYes, it is an obsession when you first start! :)
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up, just being present and loving your family is so much more valuable than making sure this is clean or that is done right. You're doing a wonderful job as a young wife and mother. When you're a little older you'll learn to really throw most of the stress out of the window and just sit down and eat some cheetos. Haha.
I COMPLETELY understand when you say you just want to "not be needed". IAnd I only have 1. I feel so guilty when David is talking for like his 3 hour without a break and my mind has checked out and I just want to tell him to STOP TALKING!!!!! Some days I do, and some days God give me the grace and reminds me that there will be days that I will be LONGING for him to talk to me. You are a great mom and wife...keep up the calling that God has called you to do! he will give you everything you need to be even better at it!!
ReplyDeleteNatalyn: you are my blog upperclassman---i will follow you wherever you go and learn your awesome ways! Thanks for the encouragement.
ReplyDeleteLia: Thanks!
Kym: I hear ya. That's a great way to look at it---someday you'll wish he was around to talk your ear off---but by then who knows how awesome technology will be!
I love the pix of Moses doing the Superman. :)
ReplyDeleteOkay, I think the pix were on another post, but you know which one I was talking about. Late night for me!
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